I realize this is a TV show, but it’s also my life. I am on the spectrum. I don’t deal with it well. I have panic attacks at least once a week, if not once a month. Love for me is even harder. The first man I ever loved hurt me in ways I mentally feel like I should’ve never dated again. It literally made me feel like an emotional roller-coaster even though I already am one. I don’t know if I wanna take a dive into my whole dating past, but love sucks really bad. Do I believe that two people can fall in love anymore? I don’t know. I want to hope so. It’s kinda like, do I believe if there’s an upper being up there. I’d like to hope so. If there’s an upper being up there, why did he put me through so many heartaches and sorrows? My last ex bf cheated on me at least 3 times. I apologize if this page has turned into a place where I talk about my feelings, too, but I’m not sure where else I can go to write my feelings out, like word vomit. I still love pies and books, and I really should have, by now, become asexual from all the stuff men and women have put me through. I’m not saying by any means I’m perfect to live with, but why couldn’t I have met my significant other when I was 14, and I was figuring out what kissing was and love. I feel like as far as passion goes, my books know wayyyy more than I’ll always know about love. When we grew up, we were always told the knight in the white horse was gunna save us from the dragon, and we’d live happily ever after. I always wanted to fly off with the dragon to have never-ending adventures and then forget the prince. Idk, love has always been so complicated for me. Never working out because of one reason or another. In my opinion, love sucks. We all die alone anyway. I know that’s a grim thought but it’s true. I want it. I don’t think it’ll happen but I want it.
Empowered vol 4
Emp is very cute, adorable and slightly inappropriate. I need that sometimes in my life. I like a little light reading to cleanse my palette. I love these because it takes me to another world that is way different than my own. The main character makes me laugh. I like the writer. Anyway, I finished this one in a day. Her powers are a lot like the Marvel character Venom. Where did she get the suit from? Where did she meet her sidekick? I like this superhero. Shes powerful, cute and bubbly. If I was in better shape, I’d consider being her for Halloween. Please keep reading guys.
Been awhile
I met him online…
After speaking for probably everyday for a week and a half, we decided to meet for coffee at a popular coffeehouse where I lived. On the site we met on, I ended up answering probably 1000 questions for him. We thought we were a match. He was so charming on that first date, I decided I’d be intimate. I talked to him about our future and getting sphinx cats. We spent the whole day together and he bought me dinner on that first date. I didn’t understand why. One of the things that really drove me to him was his deep slight country accent. His voice was beautiful music to my ears.
We dated for exactly a year. He ended up breaking up with me on my anniversary. His family was violent and harassing towards me. He wasn’t the best boyfriend I ever had, and did several wrongs during our relationship. One thing about him that I really fell in love with was his love of frogs. He made me laugh with his puns and funny faces.
Is it wrong that I thought he was the one, because he got along with my parents? He didn’t support me the way I needed when his family got violent towards me.
It was probably my lack of self confidence, but even though he didn’t do everything I liked/loved, I fell hard for him and wanted a future with him. We lived together for less than a year until I couldn’t handle his family threatening me anymore.
After we broke up, I found someone that had a space nearby my place of work. My ex got very angry that I was able to find somewhere so fast and make a friend that fast. He deleted me out of his life completely. Said “you don’t need me. ” I was devastated. It was my first out of state experience without my parents and he told my family, “he hoped we’d stay friends no matter what happens and that I could contact him for anything at anytime.”
I have autism. Maybe I was too much for him. Maybe he never loved me and only wanted to change me. He was a person I could do without, but as a friend, I wish I could’ve kept. As I write this, I’m kinda tearing up because it was a new friend in a new state. I am not going to stay here my entire life and when I get the money and the chance I’m moving with my tiny house and leaving.
You want to hope with all your heart that people are inherently good but most of the time it isn’t the case. When I put my heart out there, most of the time it gets stomped on. I want to love again but I’ve become numb to people. I’ve become more introverted because of life. I don’t want to be but I am a bit scared to laugh or be loud. Or to have fun for fear of judgement.
You definitely see how people truly are once they get angry with you. I wish I had never met him. I wish I had never met any of the guys I dated. I loved way too hard for my own good and got hurt.
In my life, I have two goals now. I want to be an author of children’s novels and I want to own my own bookstore.
The witch’s brew
I couldn’t follow this at all. I thought these were supposed to stand alone. I liked that Serena Valentino put Ursula’s famous song but this book really wasn’t about Ursula. It had some of her back story but not all of it. I just feel like this was about how villainous she could be to others. Serena barely writes about her parents who may or may not be the rulers of the sea. Why didn’t Serena touch on her childhood? It wasn’t horrible but it wasn’t my favorite. Keep reading guys.
Poor Unfortunate souls
This is Ursula’s backstory. Maybe a tale of her whole life before Ariel. I always feel bad for the villains. They always have cruel backstories. What made her evil? Was it parentage? Was it a wrongdoing of love?I really think she was cursed into an octopus and thats why she turned evil. I think we’ll figure it out in this novel. Keep reading guys.
Runaways was ok
I haven’t written in a very long while because I haven’t had the itch and I felt like no one was reading these things I was posting. I have gotten more than one person ask me when I was going to start up again. I finally have the time( while I’m at work to do this). I probably shouldn’t be. But my boss literally says there’s nothing else to do. I might as well do what makes me happy.
Here’s my review:
I feel like they added too many plot lines to this novel. Why did my favorite character have to go away? I’m glad nothing really bad happened in this volume. I feel like unnecessary instances happen to the Runaways. I will continue to read this series. I thought it got kinda campy at parts. I hope that in the next few volumes it gets better. I’m hoping not so many romances and more fighting against heroes. I like the Runaways and it’s a very interesting story, so I’ll finish it. I know they are becoming adults now but it doesn’t have to get gushy. Please keep reading guys.
Runaways volume 7:Live Fast
When I wrote this, I felt like running away from everything. My go to place is the beach. I felt like these graphic novels give me somewhere to go that isn’t the real world. They take me to a place with heroes and villains. I felt so many emotions when I started this book. I felt exhausted, overwhelmed, annoyed and scared. I also felt disappointed. I now feel scared, tired and achy. I’m sure I enjoyed this graphic novel. Keep reading to see!
Eh, lighter Avengers novel
I didn’t like how he used flashbacks in this book. I feel like it could’ve been written better. I wish that Peter clines introduced his characters better for instance: “my name is” or “next we hear from.” Otherwise it wasn’t bad. I didn’t understand many fighting terms and there were so many superheroes it was hard to keep track. It wasn’t the worst book I’ve ever read but it wasn’t the best. It went by fairly fast. I may have read the next one because it was part of a goal I had. Keep reading guys.
Ex heroes: a Novel
I used to follow and listen to a blog that made me a list of a type of books to read. I no longer do that list because I feel like now I read what I want to read and listen to what I want to listen to. The blog used to be modernmrsdarcy.com. A few years ago I read three books in a row in a series because the list said so. My ex boyfriend introduced me to this series. The guy on the front looks like Winter soldier to me. We’ll see if I like it in another blog post. I still follow that writer because she does a podcast: “what should I read next?.” It gives me ideas of books to read. Anyway, keep reading guys!
Mail annoys me for the first time
In this graphic novel, they seem to go on and on with fanmail. Continue on with squirrel girl. I wanna see her defeat the bad guys. I like her empowering voicr and how she likes to talk bad guys down before fighting them too. It’s cute. I like her ears too. Is there an evil squirrel? Like from Norse mythology? I’m usually not a huge fan of squirrels but I love Squirrel girl. I wish they’d leave the fanmail towards the back of the book, so fans can choose whether or not to read it. Otherwise it was a good volume and I finished it fast. Keep reading guys!
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